The Same Night Awaits Us All Read online

  Indeed. The prosecutor, one Manyo Genkov, really had tried his best: instead of asking for the minimum three-year sentence he had pleaded for a year, and the judge had groaned with hasty relief and banged his gavel. And as Sheytanov sat there amid the Kilifarevo forests, he likely wished for nothing more than to have been inside that courtroom, slinging jokes at the poet to cheer him up, shouting: “Milev! I disagree with the ruling. This man is making a mockery of your work. Only a year for that poem?! For shame! These people aren’t taking you seriously, Milev. You should’ve been hit with the maximum for writing that fine piece!” Or something in that vein.

  But who could’ve possibly told him that while he read the now three-day-old newspaper, the poet had already been summoned for an “informal inquiry” in connection with his now seemingly settled case? And how could he have known that the poet wasn’t summoned to the courthouse as he should have been—but to the Police Directorate?

  And that was that.

  [Tuesday evening, January 1, 2013]

  In late afternoon on the fifteenth of May, nineteen twenty-five, the poet’s wife and her sister Maria made their way to the Police Directorate right next to Lavov Most, Lions’ Bridge. The Directorate was a white-stone building with a pentagram above it, yet unhaunted by the ghosts, vengeful vampires, karakonjuli, and angels with blood-drenched wings that would one day reside there. The women brought the poet’s coat, because they’d sent him off at dawn with nothing more than a handkerchief, and it was frigid out. It had been so cold, in fact, that both women’s fingers had frozen inside their lace gloves—as if winter had returned that spring day.

  It goes without saying that the women weren’t at all allowed in, and while they stood outside and the murk over Sofia descended, they caught sight of the poet behind a window on the top floor.

  But Sheytanov, up in the Kilifarevo hills, had no way of knowing any of this.

  The poet too had no way of knowing that the last thing he would ever pen was his signature acknowledging receipt of a three hundred leva loan from the secretary of the Union of Handicapped Officers. Which he would never repay . . .

  [Wednesday, January 2, 2013]

  The poet had a strange attitude toward Death. He’d lived through her once, when she’d held him in her dark embrace for seven days and seven nights. She had to all appearances unhanded him, but in fact she followed him no matter where he went and what he did. It was for this reason Death had become tedious—she reminded him of herself all the time. It was enough to simply look in the mirror. Or to feel the guilt-ridden shiver in the eyes of those who saw him for the first time . . . Only Mila had not so much as flinched when she met him at the corner of Legé Street and Dondukov Boulevard on that December day in nineteen seventeen. Only she had not been even the slightest bit repulsed by the hideous, weeping, dark abyss behind the black bandage he wore to cover what had once been his right eye, or by the disheartening scars all over his entire face.

  The poet would be forever grateful for that.

  [Thursday, January 3, 2013]

  The reminder of Death’s nod most infuriated him while he was in the midst of giving one of his lectures. As soon as he’d reach the pinnacle of the discourse, either due to the intensity of public speaking or because of the penetrating reek of the tar they used to seal the parquet floors in those claustrophobic community-center salons, or perhaps it was due to the muted lighting above the podium where he stood, it was without fail that rivulets of amber mucus would wind up trickling down his right cheekbone. Agitated, he’d briskly turn his back to the uneasy audience, take off his glasses with the darkened right lens, rapidly wipe his face, then shake the lock of hair back into place above his right eye and start up again exactly where he’d left off. But he’d grown petulant in the process, coming across as if he were now berating his audience, rather than giving a speech on expressionism and futurism.

  At any rate, the Dutch doctor from Leiden, Johannes Esser, esteemed member of the University of Berlin and a widely respected plastic surgeon, had done an outstanding job, but the German-made glass eye had proven overwhelmingly uncomfortable and the poet had had to purchase another one from Schlesinger & Co., the specialty optical atelier on Alabinska Street.

  It was as though Death somehow lived inside of him, in the pulsating throb above the blown-out right brow and in the piercing chest pain, where Esser had removed part of his rib, reconstructing some of what had been destroyed by British shrapnel. But aside from that, his brain was covered only by skin, and if it weren’t for the lock of hair falling over his right eye, the blue veins pulsating beneath would be bared for all to see. He could only sit bent over his writing table for an hour before his head would pound with unbearable pain. In moments like these, he’d ask himself whether it wouldn’t have been a good idea to have stayed for those last two surgeries in Germany as the good Doctor Esser had suggested that February day in nineteen seventeen. But he, still sunken into a sticky, tar-like sweat following yet another dose of anesthesia, had cut the doctor off: “I will not. This is it for me. Aren’t fourteen operations enough? Let whatever happens, happen. I’m leaving!” The doctor had then pleaded with his wife. “My dear lady,” he assured her. “It is only one more surgery! I promise you, he will have his looks back. Tell him, I beg of you.” But the poet snapped that his wife would never disagree with her own husband, and on the first of March, Geo and Mila Milev set off to Budapest from Berlin. From there, on to Orșova, and from Orșova, to Lom, and after twenty days of trains and hotels and cruise liners, they arrived back in Sofia . . .

  The pain got to him, but the poet walked around with the dark pride of a swan to spite it. He’d trip up on occasion when he misjudged the height of stairs, and he looked both ways apprehensively before venturing to cross the tram-filled boulevard. And so it went.

  In that respect, Death really did live life alongside him. At home, nobody had raised the subject for ages. He’d forbidden them to. His only concerns were the magazines, the books, the printers, the zincographers, who never got the engraving plates for the vignettes right, and the illustrations and the inks and the paper. And the booksellers . . .

  . . . And the money, of which there was never enough for any of these things.

  [Friday, January 4, 2013]

  . . . The idiots assessing Sheytanov’s verdict in Gorna Dzhumaya—all those Vanchovs, Ionkovs, or Perovs—shut themselves in the other room to decide his fate; he’d been left alone with two of their goons. They had dark faces, reeked unbearably, and glared at him with empty opium eyes. He knew their type—they killed without a second thought.

  “Not that these scumbags have any first thoughts to speak of,” he may have thought to himself, and vowed to remember the joke and share it with the poet in the coming days; the latter would probably put it in one of his poems or his trademark philippics.

  Sheytanov couldn’t have known that a second group of black-coated messengers of God had already cracked the poet’s skull with a bludgeon thick as a man’s arm. That’s how it went down: the others just got strangled, but the poet, they shattered his skull first.

  Geo Milev’s skull had cracked from the left temple all the way to the nape of the neck at the first blow, but the goons kept going until they broke him entirely. Only then did they throw a black rag over his face and strangle him with the nearby rope left out for the very occasion.

  [Saturday, January 5, 2013]

  Sheytanov sat, hands tied, inside a room that reeked of rotting wood, sour wine, and opium. It was quiet and dark, save for the rusty voices scraping the silence in the next room over . . . The two smug goons sitting across from him assumed they had frightened him to death, but they’d only made the whole thing tiresome for him. “What do I have left to be afraid of?” he thought.

  He suddenly laughed.

  “Excuse me, friends, but have either of you ever heard of a bath?”

  The goons froze.

  “My apologies, gentlemen, looking at you—I just couldn
’t help but laugh,” he continued. “You’re quite pungent. Do you at least change your underwear? Why am I even asking . . . You probably don’t even wear any, do you? You just pull your breeches up right over your bare ass—am I right? Come on, you’re still young men. You’ll make the ladies gag.”

  Then he sighed and added that clean underwear is half the battle to good health.

  “Civilization,” he went on. “How can you not love it?”

  And the goons? One of them shot snot out his nose and wiped it on his leg; the other mumbled a vile expletive.

  [Sunday, January 6, 2013]

  A gray morning followed on the thirtieth of May, but the Vanchovs and the Ionkovs kept on bickering in the room next door. He put his head down on the cot and fell asleep, still tied up. He’d been so exhausted; he slept for ten hours and by the time he awoke, it had already darkened again. The goons across from him had changed, but it was as though they were the same—like they’d crawled out of the same mother.

  “What’s happening, druzia? Anything new?”

  The goons groaned in lieu of a response and put a hand on the Mausers sticking out of their belt holsters.

  “Never mind,” he sighed. “I thought we could make some small talk to make the time go by faster, but I can see you’re not much for words . . .”

  He shrugged and shut his mouth, and they stood there in silence as the night passed, all while the voices of the Perovs and the Vanchovs muttered behind the locked door. They didn’t come into the room that night, and they did not come in the following day . . . In fact, they didn’t appear at the door again until late on the night of the thirty-first of May, and, tired and sour, informed him he’d been sentenced. Then they nodded at yet another pair of goons to take him out of the shack.

  They took him out to a yard enclosed by a stone wall, where either Vancho or Ionko or another of the king’s men going about their business in these volatile places cut off his head. The others wrapped the head in rags, stored it away in a leather saddlebag, and stuffed his body back in the car.

  All this happened at the precise hour in which the wrecked body of the poet, jammed into a sack, was thrown from a black truck into a muddy hole by the Ilianski Base* on the outskirts of Sofia. The men inside the vehicle threw some scraps of garbage and five dog

  [Monday, January 7, 2013]

  carcasses on top, lest someone come digging around.

  [Tuesday, January 8, 2013]

  [Before I forget! On the afternoon of that same fifteenth of May, when the agent took her husband away to the station for an inquiry, Mila Geo Mileva sent a telegram to her brother-in-law, Boris. She’d already been to the Police Directorate to ask after her husband, but when she was told no person by that name was there, she’d become perturbed. She summoned Boris to Sofia immediately without revealing why . . .

  Boris was, at that time, secretary to the Stara Zagora governor—Stavri Andreev someone-or-other. As soon as he received the dispatch from his sister-in-law, Boris’s heart sank. That year such telegrams were never a good sign. He knew how people disappeared that spring, he knew about the so-called rogue agents*—those in charge of murdering political opponents—he knew about all of it. The very first thing he did when he got the telegram was to call that same Stavri Andreev and ask him to arrange a meeting with the director of Public Safety in Sofia, Vladimir Nachev. Andreev picked up the phone at once and the man on the other end, Nachev, confirmed that Geo Milev was indeed at the Police Directorate, not to worry, but Boris caught the overnight train to Sofia nevertheless.

  He arrived before sunrise the following day, now the sixteenth of May, and took the first taxi, or maybe the first phaeton, and headed straight to see Nachev. Not at the Police Directorate, either, but right to the man’s house—because he and Nachev went back to the army days and had served together in the same regiment . . . Nachev, astounded, told him that his brother had never been there, and who would tell him such a thing! Boris, even more astounded, reminded him of the previous night’s conversation with Stavri Andreev, but Nachev swore that he hadn’t spoken to Andreev in weeks! He went as far as to cross himself.

  “Honest to God!” he said. “Boris, brother, don’t talk like that. Have I ever lied to you?!”

  That is what he said and gave his word that he would personally look into the whole thing, and call Boris back the very next day . . . Boris only let out a groan and went to Maria Luisa Boulevard to reassure Mila and Maria that everything would be all right.

  But the next day was a Sunday and of course Nachev didn’t call, so on Monday Boris marched right into Public Safety. There, Vladimir Nachev told him immediately that he had checked everywhere and now only the worst could be assumed: that his brother may really have been taken by rogue agents . . .

  Boris erupted and demanded to know what Nachev was insinuating—that his brother was done for and there was no use in searching for him?

  “Is that what you’re saying?” he yelled. “Or are you telling me that you can protect the Sakarovs and the Bakalovs and Kabakchievs,* who have been propagating communism for years, and whom you now coddle and protect, because God forbid, what’s Europe going to say! But my brother, who is scarred from head to toe from fighting for this country, you can leave him like a toy in the hands of some so-called rogue agents? I hope that isn’t what you are saying!”

  He continued, questioning what this pathetic little country had come to, and pounded Nachev’s desk with his fist. He then snapped that he would quit, he wouldn’t stay secretary to the governor for one more second.

  “Don’t be stupid,” Nachev said.

  “Watch me.”

  Boris slammed the door.

  He went right to Captain Kocho Stoyanov, with whom he’d also served, and whom the Minister of War, Vulkov, and the Minister of Internal Affairs, Russev, had now appointed Police Marshal of Sofia.

  This same Stoyanov jumped to his feet as soon as he saw Boris and bustled around him, asking after his father and what could possibly have brought him here, but Boris cut him off:

  “I demand to know the whereabouts of my brother—the writer Geo Milev!”

  Kocho Stoyanov stood confused: “Oh, Geo Milev? He’s your brother? That Geo Milev—your brother?”

  When Boris looked into the eyes of this former friend from the regiment, he knew instantly—not only did this person know exactly his brother’s whereabouts and his fate, but he had personally ordered the execution. Boris felt his world collapse and his knees buckled with a helplessness he’d never before felt; he realized he would no longer be looking for his brother, but for his brother’s body. And the most he could hope for now was to give his brother a proper funeral . . .

  He suddenly remembered how, when they were children, he trailed after his older brother, his batko, like a little puppy, and his batko had seemed so much older and so much bigger—an entire year bigger! His batko was always drawing and drawing and drawing . . . And if he didn’t like the drawing—he ripped up the paper and Boris scurried to pick up the scraps. Batko drew, then ripped the paper and threw it away, and Boris picked it back up, over and over again. And when Boris got all the little scraps—he’d glue them back together in his own little notebook . . . then hide the notebook in very secret places, and his batko just laughed and laughed . . .

  Boris remembered too how he and his batko—barely five and six-years-old—were coming back from the vineyard one autumn with their father, Milyo Kassabov. Their father, their tatko, picked up an acorn from the lawn outside the train station and told them that this was where all the big trees they saw all around came from. Both of the boys rushed to gather up all the acorns they could find, planting them right next to the well, where the earth was moist, because that’s what their tatko said to do.

  And it really happened! The very next spring two little oaks sprung up from the ground. The boys immediately encircled them with nice big stones and watered them: just as their tatko had instructed them. The following year, Boris’s lit
tle oak dried up, but his batko’s only got bigger and bigger. It grew quickly and unstoppably, surpassing the stone wall, then the shed, and then the house, until it reached the sky. And that’s where it stayed—in the sky. Their little sister Maria loved to lay by the thick, trimmed box tree and look up at the clouds through the oak branches. “Did you see the fairy up in the cloud?” Geo would ask her. And she’d swear she had. “Batko’s little poetess!” he’d exclaim.

  . . . And Boris wept, then stood up and left.

  Kocho Stoyanov yelled at his back, “I know nothing about this matter, I haven’t even the slightest idea about any of it!” And he repeated this until Boris had exited the building, leaving the gaping door behind him . . .

  . . . Well, who’s to say if this was the way things did or didn’t happen? . . .

  The world is fucked up, and so is Bulgaria.]

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  [Thursday, January 10, 2013]

  Towering and swarthy like a raw-boned raven, the young man from Yambol marched next to Sheytanov in the humming Sofia dusk. It was the fall of nineteen twenty-three, the first day after the government had lifted the martial law; the young man was convinced he knew the poet Geo Milev very well, and was recounting the latter’s visit to Yambol the year before last, where some idiot, some witless moron, had had the nerve to arrest him.

  “Can you believe it, Sheytanov?” The young man gesticulated wildly and kept tripping over his own feet along the sidewalk. “He had, you know, long hair over his eye, and can you even guess who that idiot mistook him for?! . . .”

  Sheytanov said nothing and only smiled, but the young man went on to say the dumb cop had mistaken the poet Geo Milev for none other than Georgi Sheytanov himself! The cop had arrested him, even dragged him down to the station . . . Yambolian bullshit. The young man had immediately run after them, demanding to know whether these people were out of their heads—did they even know whom they’d detained?